Faith
… must not be mistaken as blind faith. I think faith is where you know exactly what decision you’re making.
hmm..
i was just having a short catch-up with my wonderful cute little ex-sheep, ruijun, and we were talking about studies. i told her i really admired the fact that she gave all her best in her studies, because i knew i didn’t. i knew i could have given my all. she said i slacked. i told her i didn’t. it was more like i wasn’t interested. then i told her i would have given my all if i were studying pure literature and pure art.
and i would have gone on to pursue law and psychology.
and i realized how different my life might be.
i could become a successful lawyer, and singing- would just be my little side hobby. it would be a stable and rich lifestyle.
for a moment, i don’t know which life i’d preferred.
Just in case…
…you guys are wondering why I’ve got so many locked entries, please do not be stumbled and think that I’ve got too many hidden secrets to show the world, they are all entries to songs that I have written. So, please don’t be stumbled. LOL.
Masquerade
I broke down to tears when I saw the people going down the aisle. I knew where I was going, and was assured by God that this was where I was heading. I was also really happy when Shuz told me about the fact that she was touched by the song. She encouraged me to write more songs and truly, I was really, really happy. I had always wanted to know if I was going on the write path(being a singer-songwriter) and I really think these gave me a push to it. These really stopped me from wavering and directed me straight back into my personal vision for God.
It also seemed like the song was very well-received. I am really thankful for that and I really do recognize that without God, all of what I wrote would mean nothing.
On another heavy note – I think I’m suffering from a hearing disease. I’m not too sure. Gonna see doc’ about it and pray it’s just my imagination. =/
Oh. Someone asked me for the mp3 for “Will I Find?” So, here it goes. ^^
http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=f74bb41992d1ec56d8f14848abf485dde04e75f6e8ebb871
Will I Find?
It seems like everyone surrounding thinks that what they see is what’s inside of me
They see the smiles the ecstasy and that pretty little girl I choose to be
The endless chasing for those countless things they seem to put a heavy spell on me
But when I try to find the real me I could only sink down to my knees
Who am I behind this mask I hide?
Is there anyone inside?
Bring me somewhere, where I won’t live a lie
Bring me elsewhere, where I can be alive
Will I ever find myself that’s hidden undernearth my skin
Will I find?
Will I find?
Lyrics credit to Erina Seah(me) and Jasmine Loh(the one who put Masquerade together) and with help from Jon Tay(my father) and Veronica Neo(my smart shepherd).
Music credits to Erina Seah
Musician: Lun Yaoguo(for both keyboards)
Sound Mixer: Simon Tan(sound mixer sounds wrong. -.-’)
